You'd think that two back to back giant thunder snowstorms (yes, snow with thunder and lightning!) would inspire me to hunker down with my project, but I've been doing a ton of shoveling (car and street), then had a dead battery to take care of, and am trying to work remotely as we're shut down at the arts council all this week. It's time for Maryland's Poetry Out Loud regionals and I've had to reschedule two of them, which has been rather chaotic.
It's still snowing as I write this and another storm is expected Sunday. Here's a picture of my street under nearly four feet of snow, courtesy of one of my neighbors:
So my plans to go English Country Dancing have been thwarted, though I might be able to go this coming Monday if the next storm isn't too bad.
I have to admit, also, here at the six month point in this project, that I feel a little at loose ends. The reading process has been slow (I've been reading fan fic during the storm - the Pamela Aidan trilogy about Darcy's side of P&P - I can't help it! Fan fic is perfect for a snowstorm, though her Darcy is immediately too lovestruck and obsessed over Elizabeth so tension is missing, and there's a gothic tale in the second book that's more worthy of Bronte's Jane Eyre than Austen, so I haven't been as captivated by the books as I wanted to be), and a bit at sea in terms of process. I need to get back on track and also feel that I need some kind of thesis, which bugs me. Just experiencing the readings and learning as I go should be enough - not needing to produce anything. I'll be happy with a shift in my own self-awareness and consciousness, really. That's what counts. But the left brain side of me, the logical, analytical side, wants some kind of question that will be answered by the end.
It's time to refocus. Strangely hard to do with so much unstructured down time because of the storm.
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